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Great turnout at the Save Sheffield Trees protest earlier today. Find out more here about why many people in Sheffield are angry about the way Sheffield City Council are ‘managing’ i.e. chopping down our trees.

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New song: The Royal Flush

Here is my response to the announcement that £369m of taxpayers’ money is to be spent on refurbishing Buckingham Palace.

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It’s pay what you want, with all proceeds to be split between Arts Emergency and Roundabout.

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The Liberty System: Charlotte, the Levitator

As in the previous posts about Anne, the Gardener and Emily, the Diver don’t read if you don’t like your songs thoroughly explained…

You’d think that because we know so much more about Charlotte Brontë’s life than we do about her sisters’ it would be easier to write about her, but it only seemed to make my task much harder. I struggled a lot with this one, ripping it up and starting completely from scratch several times.

Thinking of a shape had helped me write the other two songs; the trellis shape of Anne’s and the starry lines of Emily’s, and in the same way I tried to pin Charlotte to a circular shape. I was thinking of the sisters walking around their dining table in the evenings, as they read and discussed their work with each other (Charlotte even continued to circle the table alone after her sisters were gone).

It seemed to me Charlotte was the driving force for their circular evening walks; it was Charlotte that found Emily’s poetry and came up with the idea to write and publish, it was her momentum encouraging the sisters’ writing and whipping things up – like a tornado – to release that work into the world. But whilst this circle shape seemed to work to a certain extent, I couldn’t reconcile it with Charlotte’s changes of heart, changes of mind, all the contradictory aspects of Charlotte’s character and the parts of her I didn’t understand (and some I possibly didn’t like!). Every time I thought I was getting somewhere I felt as though Charlotte was stood in front of me, arms crossed, saying ‘nope, that’s not me either’.

I took a break from Charlotte’s song, hoping that some distance would help. About a week later,  I was taking a walk by the river and thinking – given the watery surroundings – of Emily’s song, not of Charlotte’s. I sat down right on the edge of the bank so that the water would drown out all the other sounds. It was then that I saw a huge cloud of flies over the river; an ugly, chaotic, floating mass of tiny insects. But as I looked more closely, and focused on individuals in that mass, I saw that there was order to it after all; each fly had a path to follow – left to right, turning, right to left, turning – until it paired off with another fly mid-air and floated away from the cloud.

Back at home I thought of their flight path, and of Charlotte – that wind I couldn’t grasp and pin down to a circle. Her contradictory nature. Her resistance and forcefulness. I could see the shape of her now:

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(I’m sure Charlotte wouldn’t be flattered that mating flies helped me on this, but that’s the truth of it, what can I tell you.)

And now I could see that when she moves from left to right – the direction of writing – she is her pseudonym ‘Currer Bell’; a writer, a free-flowing thought sharer, a mind laid bare. But when she turns and moves from right to left, she is Charlotte Brontë; confused and unsettled, wanting to love and be loved, wanting respect and adoration, unsatisfied and self-conscious, with feelings of failure and regret. It is Charlotte’s many selves, outer and inner, that make her as hard to grasp as the wind.

Charlotte, the Levitator (element = air, liberty = mind)

“The wind shifts to the west. Peace, peace Banshee – ‘keening’ at every window! It will rise – it will swell – it shrieks out long: wander as I may through the house this night, I cannot lull the blast.” – Lucy Snowe, Villette
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Picture the Parsonage, with Emily and Anne already busy writing inside; cultivating their imaginary world. Charlotte is outside, restlessly circling the building, protective, contemplative – the face she showed to the outside world – but also full of frustration and impatience at her place in that world. Charlotte felt left out in society, with neither marriage nor satisfying work seemingly open to her, ‘born only to work for a piece of bread’* and carrying a broken heart around with her too – but unable to express all of these thoughts and feelings. She was forever waiting for something to happen:

A stillness she can’t bear, this curling, swirling air
But she holds her breath and – from right to left – patrols the perimeter

It is only when she changes direction and writes that she is able to enjoy a sense of freedom and fulfilment. She goes in to join her sisters, releasing her own talents into that garden, using her inner thoughts as her art; the bottled up feelings pouring out onto the page:

Oh a breeze breathes relief – she comes in, then what’s in is released
Soars to ceiling height and – from left to right –
spreads her secrets to each dew-soaked leaf
Decanter, thought-planter, blow through the grass and speak at last
Set em flyin’ dandelion, come sing out loud, don’t whisper now
Navigator, levitator, over mist prevail to fill that sail
Before you turn again, weathervane

As a writer, Charlotte – like Emily – can exercise control over language and meaning, as though controlling the weather. She has power within the garden of their writing, fuelled by her innermost thoughts and feelings. Importantly, she has another kind of power that can elevate – levitate – her sisters’ work, driving them all towards publishing:

Weeds to tumble and stalks to bend
Soil to crumble and breath to lend
Prithee pepperpot-shaker, show your power, sea-shaper
Take us up, take us out, sky’s friend*
Hair-tangler, cloud-wrangler, it’s up to you when the sun breaks through

Take us higher, spread this fire through the great outside, be satisfied
Fog-lifter, seed-drifter, your own heart as proof, tell the truth
Before you circle back on your corkscrew track

It is here that Charlotte turns again on her flight path, from Currer Bell back into Charlotte Brontë. The release of the Brontë novels into the world, the suspicion cast on the Bells’ gender, and the attacks on their ‘coarse’ and ‘unfeminine’ work was not the kind of attention Charlotte had longed for. She wanted fame, yes, but not to be thought of as a scandalous person. Charlotte wanted irreconcilable things for her time it seems; to be respected and loved for her mind, but still to be seen as a dignified, dutiful woman within the bounds of 1840s society.

Her frustration begins to take a negative effect on the garden within the Parsonage dining room. Charlotte is now the last sister alive:

But with this tidy turn, the wallflowers wince and waver
Flickering the lamplight, dropping the temperature
Throwing back the bushes, like a tossed head of hair
Right to left – so bereft – blowing a cold, cold air

In an attempt to clear herself and her sisters of accusations of coarseness, and regain their reputations as good clergyman’s daughters, Charlotte wrote the ‘Biographical Notice of Ellis and Acton Bell’. In this, she described Anne’s depiction of alcoholism and bad marriage in The Tenant of Wildfell Hall as “an entire mistake”, dismissing Anne’s courageousness, uprooting her garden and leaving her seeds to lie dormant; Anne’s work is always the last to be appreciated:

Refuter, uprooter!
“I gift to thee a dormancy”

Charlotte described Emily, with her secluded life, as someone with “no worldly wisdom”, saying “an interpreter ought always to have stood between her and the world”, seemingly discrediting Emily’s powers of observation, learning and language and removing Emily’s ownership of her talent, drying up Emily’s waters:

Chastiser, capsizer*!
“And evaporate this sinful strait”

Charlotte’s biographical noticed seemed to be an attempt to dim her sisters’ ‘Northern lights’ and simultaneously garner more respect for herself:

Oh banshee, how can she!
“Watch me dim the Northern lights”

Despite this, she would soon ‘turn again’, and write Villette; becoming Currer Bell again and pouring out her inner dissatisfaction:

Turn again, hurricane!

Charlotte, however, could not keep these ideas of her sisters’ ‘innocence’ alive any more than she could keep herself alive (happily married and expecting a child, Charlotte died shortly before her 39th birthday). And as time has gone on since her death, all the Brontë novels have been through different phases of reputation; each sister’s work has been, and continues to be, rediscovered and loved. Time is the real owner of liberty:

The wind can but grasp at the hands of time
Wise-turner, late learner, all liberty thine.

I think I went on a little bit of journey with Charlotte on this song, and though she’s not my favourite of the sisters as writers, she was a fascinating and complex person and I have much more respect and admiration for her than I did before. I’m glad that she found some happiness towards the end of her life, however briefly, in marriage. They said that she looked like ‘a little snowdrop‘ on her wedding day. It is Charlotte’s handwriting that I emulated for the cover of the tiny lyric books that accompany the CD.

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*”This hag, this Reason, would not let me look up, or smile, or hope; she could not rest until I were altogether crushed, cowed, broken in, and broken down. According to her, I was born only to work for a piece of bread, to await the pains of death, and steadily through all life to despond.” – Lucy Snowe, Villette

**Charlotte said that the sky was her great companion after her sisters were gone

*** Also in reference to the ambiguous shipwreck at the end of Villette

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And here’s a video filmed at the Upper Chapel on 14 October at Off the Shelf:

If there’s anything I haven’t explained well enough, or if you want to ask anything about The Liberty System, feel free to get in touch – leave a comment here, email nat@natjohnson.co.uk or tweet/Facebook me.

With thanks again to Off the Shelf, Beverley and Ilkley Literature Festivals.

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The Liberty System: Emily, the Diver

As I said in the last post about Anne, the Gardener, don’t read if you don’t like your songs thoroughly explained…

I bloody love Emily Brontë. When I was 20, a friend lent me his copy of Wuthering Heights. I turned my nose up at first, but he assured me I’d enjoy it and placed it in my hands (thanks, Neil B). I’ve now read that book more times than any other (except perhaps for Fantastic Mr Fox but I was somewhat smaller then.)

And the more I know about Emily, the more I love her. I had never read her poetry before this project, which is mainly what inspired the song – after all, I didn’t want to have to follow Kate Bush; I had to come at Emily from an angle other than Wuthering Heights. I loved finding out more things about her; she was nicknamed ‘The Major’, she could really whistle and she had a huge dog called Keeper. Her father let her shoot a gun out of the window every morning. She didn’t have much time for strangers. She refused to see a doctor when it was suspected she was dying, choosing to carry on with her usual duties up to her final day.

So back to the Liberty System…Anne’s garden is growing as she writes – though her plants are thirsty – and now her sister Emily is returning home to the Parsonage too.

Emily, the Diver (element = water / liberty = soul)

“…While gazing on the stars that glow
Above me in that stormless sea,
I long to hope that all the woe
Creation knows, is held in thee!

“And this shall be my dream to-night –
I’ll think the heaven of glorious spheres
Is rolling on its course of light
In endless bliss through endless years…” – Emily Brontë, ‘How Clear She Shines!’
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With all of the Brontë sisters comes this myth, a myth that seems to say ‘here were three weird, isolated Northern women who just happened to write some books somehow’. And in Emily’s case, she herself has been transformed into a Cathy-like ghost who must have wandered wild on the moors, and written in a trance*. I wanted to separate Emily from her myth and see her as a sophisticated, intelligent writer and someone with fantastic perspective and insight.

To begin, we see Emily in her mysterious, mythic form, and it’s a watery one for the purposes of these songs. In the poem ‘How Clear She Shines!‘ (excerpt above), Emily is lying on her back, looking up at the stars, and it feels like she is willing herself to have some kind of out of body experience. I picture her there, floating between the mirrored vastness of moor and sky, in that ‘stormless sea’, but now she is returning home. You cannot quite picture her though, for we don’t know enough about her; she is like a cloud of watery stars.

From depths returned, floated back to land
Face of fog and body of clay**
Diamond dust, evaporee

She crosses the moor towards home – the ‘tragedy’ of her certain death before her – angry and strong. Where Anne’s song is trellis-shaped, Emily’s at this point appears to be a straight line:

A river cut deep, a path drawn straight
Seen from above the line of fate
Face of fog and body of clay
The earth moves out of your way

Powerful and terrible as Heathcliff, lonely and cold as Cathy’s ghost, Emily appears as a black wave rolling towards the house, ready to smash through the windows and flood Anne’s garden. She is dragging that immense feeling of forever – the sky, the sea, the moor, infinity – along with her; all of history, all who came before her:

Myth sees you ride a dark wave neath the moon
Dredging all worlds from the ancient salty blue
A brideless train of eternity
Dragged in your wake across the cold country

An aside at this point…still avoiding Kate Bush, I instead channeled my no.1 hero Joanna Newsom for this song. I see similarities between Emily and Joanna – they both write about the big picture of existence and communicate it with painful beauty – so I wanted to bring this connection in. Attempting to use Joanna Newsom as an influence is a daunting thought in itself – I mostly wanted to channel her in order to create those looping long phrases in the chorus that go from major to minor to help make the point. This song did go through a few different incarnations, with more wandering sections and extra lyrics, before I cut it down by about a minute and a half!

Back to the lyrics, and at this point, just as Emily in her dark form roars towards the Parsonage, she shakes off this myth version of herself. When shadows are cast through a fog, the result is crepuscular rays (see top right in Oliver’s artwork, beneath the diving birds):

But on a damp and still morning – ah!
Your shadow there cast crepuscular

Now that the ‘real’ Emily is illuminated, we look to her talents. First, her ability to give just the right amount of watery inspiration to her sister Anne, as we briefly slip back into Anne’s melody. Then to Emily’s own writing powers; her superb ability to balance light and dark, to create great structure and drama:

And in the garden your rain falls far from the plain
Each mark met with arrow’s aim
Your current strong, your clouds right wrung
A bay where floats your galleon

Quencher, oh drencher, life-giver, life-taker
Feed these roots, fill these boots, blot and cross the wallpaper***
With port-wrenching power and starboard compassion
Love finds a lover, but a storm soon comes thrashing

Enter Charlotte. The story goes that Charlotte discovered some of Emily’s secret poetry, and it was this that gave Charlotte the idea that they should attempt to become published writers. Emily was furious with her sister, but Charlotte’s gentle campaign eventually won her around to the idea (with meek little Anne adding that she’d quite like to join in too). Charlotte, whose windy song I’ll be explaining later in the week, arrives as a steam-devil; a type of small hurricane that has the power to pick up and transport water (or make it invisible…), which she duly does, driving Emily to ‘advection’ – advection fog is caused when warm air (Charlotte) blows across a cold surface, such as water (Emily). This kind of fog can cause hazardous conditions. And so it is that Emily’s ‘coarse’ book is transported to the cities by Charlotte:

Then with mingled affection your steam-devil of a sister
Drives you to advection, that oft-brewing half-twister
And comes a creeping fog from her petting conquistar
Downward and townward to menace the vista

Emily’s work shocked the public. Her perspective is unwelcome.

A low-lying, eye-widening solitary cloud
A galaxy unfocused unsettles the crowd

But Emily is not concerned about the public and their day-to-day nonsense and what they might think of her – she knows how quickly time passes, how opinions change; see the generations skip by in Wuthering Heights. Anyway, she didn’t write it for them, she was not a fame-seeker like Charlotte, she was creating art for its own sake, whilst trying to help her family’s income. She didn’t announce herself in London when Charlotte and Anne went to reveal who the Bells really were. She was happiest at home, where she could focus on the thoughts that mattered to her.

But you’re far from there – you are diving again
For no soul can be loosed in this world of men
Closer to home is closer to you…

And so Emily, aged 30, dies. She returns to the watery ‘infinity’ of her poems, submerged in that long hand-to-hand chain of writers and artists; all those that came before her (like Byron, one of her influences) and after her (like Sylvia Plath, who she influenced):

…Closer still is the infinitely starry, salty blue
Diving and grasping for hands outstretched
Take your place in the chain reaching down to the depths

A consumptive Emily, refusing to see the doctor until her very last day, only adds to this idea I have of her; that she was so aware of her mortality, of her tiny window of existence, that she wasn’t about to lay down and waste the last few months she had because a doctor told her to. She was so fiercely alive, and tried to take in as much as she could while she was here. She was fascinated and frustrated by the infinity she knew she was a part of, but that she would not be able to consciously enjoy when her illness took her.

Al Reffell made a beautiful animated film to go with Emily, the Diver, which was projected onto the outside of the Upper Chapel (see pics here). I’ll be able to share a video from the night soon. in the meantime you can see it projected this Saturday 29 October onto the CAST building in Doncaster – more info.

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*Lucasta Miller talks about this more eloquently in her book ‘The Brontë Myth’

**”I’m happiest when most away
I can bear my soul from its home of clay
On a windy night when the moon is bright
And the eye can wander through worlds of light – 

When I am not and none beside – 
Nor earth nor sea nor cloudless sky – 
But only spirit wandering wide
Through infinite immensity.
– Emily Jane Brontë

***At the Brontë Parsonage you can see some pages of Emily’s notebook, where she has crossed out huge sections and blotted over others. It was an enduring image in my mind, not as neat and tidy as her sisters, but determined and alive.

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The Liberty System: Anne, the Gardener

I’m always in two minds about explaining songs – I try not to explain too much, because I don’t like to bring a song into rigid focus for others – that’s not what music is for. I sometimes wish I knew less about other people’s songs so that I could feel about them how I did on first listen, drawing interpretations that meant the most to me. I’ll explain things if people specifically ask, but in general I try to keep it vague. However it feels different in this instance – it’s a commission, a literature project, something I researched. So I’m going to explain the lyrics. If you don’t like your songs thoroughly explained, stop reading now!

So starting with Anne, and this isn’t the first song of mine she has appeared in. ‘Agnes’ from 2012’s Roman Radio is named for the protagonist of Anne’s first novel, Agnes Grey, and paraphrases a line from the book: “Who would hang their hope on so frail a twig?” That song was about me though, not Anne; about the anxiety and self-doubt of starting again after MSTU (based on real anxiety dreams I was having), which is what quite a lot of that album is about. For this song, I was looking straight at Anne.

When I was first commissioned for this project, an image formed quickly in my mind – that of the small dining room at the Parsonage becoming overgrown as the three great minds of the sisters affected their environment as they wrote. The image that would start this process was that of Anne, returning to the room and laying her frustrations about women’s lack of intellectual opportunity on the dining table, like a bunch of flowers.

Anne, the Gardener (element = earth / liberty = women)

Here was Arthur left to me at last; and rousing from my despondent apathy, I exerted all my powers to eradicate the weeds that had been fostered in his infant mind, and sow again the good seed they had rendered unproductive. Thank Heaven, it is not a barren or a stony soil; if weeds spring fast there, so do better plants.” – Helen Huntingdon, The Tenant of Wildfell Hall

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Anne had to be earth. She wears her heart on her sleeve when it comes to her writing; we know what she wants and what her opinions are. We know she feels acutely the unfairness of the lack of opportunities for women at that time, and a woman’s lack of voice to protest against this unfairness. At the start of the song, Anne is returning home from her unhappy spells as a Governess, where she has been made to feel invisible, unworthy and irrelevant. She is guided home by her strong connection to the homestead and her family, and by her God. She is bursting with frustration from her experiences, and knows that her need to vent about it makes her somewhat ‘out of the colour scheme*’; she will not be silent as she is expected to be:

Let out like a scream, you don’t fit with the scheme:
An orange hawkweed among the blues and yellows,
the bells and primrose t
hat line the way home,
Where you’re drawn by and by by invisible tie, a hand in the sky
You’ve been gritting your teeth until your release and you stole truth like a thief

Back in the Parsonage dining room, Anne lays down her botanical burdens as she starts to set down her frustrations in writing. The truth of what she has seen begins to spread as plants around the room, both wild but honest, a little like Anne’s writing; untamed but heartfelt:

Sister, lay your burdens on the table in a bundle of blooms, let em grow
Twisting tendrils, oh tormentil your roots running over to the edge
Your wretched vetch stretching out, heading boldly down the table leg to flagstone bed
Your honest seeds are sown

Through her novels, Anne wants to first show her readers what a poor garden society is, and then educate them on how to improve it; presenting a model garden where women can flourish in roles other than mother/wife/governess. She recognises her own situation in the disorder and madness of the ungoverned plants, and builds a trellis to help guide her plants, herself and others; a more ordered and fairer layout. Here I mention that the melody/guitar/rhythms/rhyme scheme, particularly in the verses, were intertwined in a trellis-like manner – the guitar as trellis, the vocal melody as the plants being trained by Anne’s efforts, the rhyme scheme as dependable and steady as Anne felt things should be. “Come forward” she calls to the flowers, to the women who have been lost in an overgrown world of men.

Now like your own self before, watch them climbing the walls
Build your trellis according to new rules
Try to train them in lines, prune the faith-strangling vines
“Come forward”

As her garden grows around her, Anne considers the diifficulty of the task ahead. The idea of the resistance she faces – despite the trust she has in her own virtues and ideals – only winds her up more and makes her more determined to speak her mind. Harebells, yellow rattles, self-heal, foxgloves and adders-tongue are all flowers and plants you can find on the Haworth moors:

Sister, grow your garden
Though your soil is pure and giving, your work’s never done
Every harebell you get ringing they hide from the sun
Every yellow rattle shaken, self-heal nettle-stung
But wear your foxgloves with that perfect love
Don’t hold your adders-tongue

I hand the voice over to Anne herself at this point and let her rave; rave against women being regarded as pets, told what to do, expected to be content being curled up by the fire while men hoarded opportunity and did whatever they wanted with no consequence. There was no law at that time to allow women to divorce – through Helen Huntingdon, Anne argued for women’s rights. Anne presents her model garden; a place where men are considerate of women’s intellectual needs, where opportunity is for everyone. Her optimism also reflects the hope she found in gazing upon the sea**

“You tell us curl up, dear creatures*** beside the fire at night
While you hedge this heaven’s pleasures to indulge your appetite
But here in the garden you must walk a straighter edge
You can really smell the roses if you cut back the excess
There’s an expansive future like the Scarborough sea
With all its hope and possibility

Anne, perhaps the least naturally gifted writer – or maybe the least confident, needs help from her sisters. The difference between Agnes Grey – essentially a long moan – and the far superior The Tenant of Wildfell Hall, I partly put down to Emily’s influence – Emily’s clear-eyed, freshwater talent is contrasted with Anne’s tentatively optimistic seawater and tears of unhappiness and frustration. The whole story within a story of TTOFW, the better balance of light and dark, comedy and tragedy, must surely have been a result of Emily and Anne discussing technique. And without Charlotte’s driving force, neither Anne nor Emily would ever have sought publication for their writing:

“And dew from my sister gives my plants their Yorkshire tea
Untasted, unsalted, unkept, inspiring me
And the breath of my sister to spread my sprouting seeds
Taking our plans in our own hands
Working the land”

I really admire Anne. It makes my heart hurt to think how she didn’t want to die when she felt she had so much more to do and say. ‘A dreadful darkness closes in‘, she wrote in her small hand – her final poem. Tiny lettering, gigantic sadness. I like how she sees real love as a burning coal fire, not a fire of twigs. I like her zest for life and truth and justice, her dissections of nature and nurture, her honest soul.

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*Many of the flowers that grow in Haworth are pinks, yellows, blues, purples and whites. Agnes Grey loves bluebells and primroses, which remind her of home. Anne herself feels conspicuously different from the silent woman she is expected to be – an orange hawkweed is one of the flowers that grows in the area whose colour stands out as different

** Anne delighted at the restorative, exhilarating powers of a seascape, feeling a renewal of her strength and hopes (e.g. see Agnes Grey, chapter XXIV ‘The Sands’:’the unspeakable purity and freshness of the air…feeling as if I had wings to my feet’.) Anne is buried near the sea at Scarborough. You can see her beach pebble collection in the Parsonage museum.

***”It is a woman’s nature to be constant – to love one and one only, blindly, tenderly, and for ever – bless them, dear creatures! and you above them all; but you must have some commiseration for us, Helen; you must give us a little more licence, for, as Shakespeare has it – However we do praise ourselves, our fancies are more giddy and unfirm, more longing, wavering, sooner lost and won than women’s are.”- Arthur Huntingdon, The Tenant of Wildfell Hall

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The Liberty System – out today!

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Hand-numbered limited edition CDs with three covers to choose from, a tiny lyric booklet and magnifying glass to help you read it. > Get yours from Bandcamp <

The Liberty System is a Brontë sisters triptych full of classical elements and meteorology. The songs Anne, the Gardener, Emily, the Diver and Charlotte, the Levitator study the literary sisters’ creative approaches and their influence on one another’s writing and ambitions.

Each song sees a sister returning to the Parsonage dining room to write – bringing the room alive – before her work is released into the world. Each sister has been ascribed an element and each seeks a different kind of liberty.

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Anne, the Gardener 

Let out like a scream, you don’t fit with the scheme; an orange hawkweed
Among the blues and yellows, the bells and primrose that line the way home
Where you’re drawn, by-and-by, by invisible tie, a hand in the sky
You’ve been gritting your teeth until your release, and you stole truth like a thief

Sister, lay your burdens on the table
In a bundle of blooms let them grow
Twisting tendrils, oh tormentil your roots running over
To the edge; your wretched vetch stretching out, heading boldly
Down the table leg to flagstone bed – your honest seeds are sown

Now like your own self before watch them climbing the walls
Build your trellis according to new rules
Try to train them in lines, prune the faith-strangling vines
“Come forwards”

Sister, grow your garden
Though your soil is pure and giving, your work’s never done
Every harebell you get ringing they hide from the sun
Every yellow rattle shaken, selfheal nettle-stung
But wear your foxgloves with that perfect love, don’t hold your adders-tongue:

“You tell us curl up, ‘dear creatures‘, beside the fire at night
While you hedge this heaven’s pleasures to indulge your appetite
But here in the garden you must walk a straighter edge
You can really smell the roses if you cut back the excess
There’s an expansive future like the Scarborough sea
With all its hope and possibility
And dew from my sister gives my plants their Yorkshire tea
Untasted, unsalted, unkept, inspiring me
And the breath of my sister to spread my sprouting seeds

“Taking our plans
In our own hands
Working the land”

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Emily, the Diver

From depths returned, floated back to land
Face of fog and body of clay
Diamond dust, evaporee

A river cut deep, a path drawn straight
Seen from above, the line of fate
Face of fog and body of clay
The earth moves out of your way

Myth sees you ride a dark wave neath the moon
Dredging all worlds from the ancient salty blue
A bride-less train of eternity
Dragged in your wake across the cold country

But on a damp and still morning – ah!
Your shadow there cast crepuscular
And in the garden your rain falls far from the plain
Each mark met with arrow’s aim
Your current strong, your clouds right wrung
A bay where floats your galleon

Quencher, oh drencher, lifegiver, life taker
Feed these roots, fill these boots, blot and cross the wallpaper
With port-wrenching power and starboard compassion
Love finds a lover but a storm soon comes thrashing
Then with mingled affection your steam-devil of a sister
Drives you to advection, that oft-brewin’ half-twister
And comes a creeping fog from her petting conquistar
Downward and townward to menace the vista

A low-lying, eye-widening solitary cloud
A galaxy unfocused unsettles the crowd
But you’re far from there; you are diving again
For no soul can be loosed in this world of men

Closer to home is closer to you
Closer still is the infinitely starry salty blue
Diving and grasping for hands outstretched
Take your place in the chain reaching down to the depths

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Charlotte, the Levitator

A stillness she can’t bear,
This curling, swirling air
But she holds her breath and, from right to left,
Patrols the perimeter

Oh, a breeze breathes relief
She comes in, then what’s in is released
Soars to ceiling height, then from left to right
Spreads her secrets to each dew-soaked leaf

Decanter, thought-planter
Blow through the grass and speak at last
Set em flyin, dandelion
Come sing out loud, don’t whisper now
Navigator, levitator
Over mist prevail to fill that sail
Before you turn again, weathervane

Weeds to tumble and stalks to bend
Soil to crumble and breath to lend
Prithee pepperpot-shaker
Show your power, sea-shaper
Take us up, take us out, sky’s friend

Hair-tangler, cloud-wrangler,
It’s up to you when the sun breaks through
Take us higher, spread this fire
Through the great outside, be satisfied
Fog-lifter, seed-drifter
Your own heart as proof, tell the truth
Before you circle back on your corkscrew track

And with this tidy turn the wallflowers wince and waver
Flickering the lamplight, dropping the temperature
Throwing back the bushes like a tossed head of hair
Right to left – so bereft – blowing a cold, cold air

Refuter, uprooter!
“I gift to thee a dormancy”
Chastiser, capsizer!
“And evaporate this sinful strait”
Oh banshee, how can she!
“Watch me dim the Northern Lights”
Turn again, hurricane

The wind can but grasp at the hands of time
Wise-turner, late learner, all liberty thine

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Literature Fests – pics

Thanks to all who came along to Off the Shelf, Ilkley Literature Festival and Beverley Literature Festival over the last few days. I’ve loved every minute of being involved in this project and working alongside Andrew McMillan and Zodwa Nyoni. We’re hoping to take it to the Brontë Parsonage itself in 2017, keep an eye out.

Off the Shelf Festival – Upper Chapel
As well as being the first of our ‘New Responses to the Brontës’ events, Friday also saw the premiere of a film by Al Reffell which she had made to accompany my song Emily, the Diver. The film was projected onto the outside of the building, whilst me, Zodwa and Andrew were performing and discussing our work inside. Thanks to Wordlife and Arts Council England for supporting the film projection. It’s going to be projected twice more – onto CAST in Doncaster on Sat 29th October, and onto the Weston Park Museum in Sheffield on Fri 25th November. Available to watch online soon too.

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Ilkley Literature Festival – Ilkley Playhouse
Another great night followed on Saturday in Ilkley:

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L-R Andrew McMillan, Zodwa Nyoni, festival director Rachel Feldberg and me

Beverley Literature Festival – Beverley Minster
A stunning place to play!

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Here’s my view from the ‘stage’:14695469_10154272520793705_969849062773389628_n
We were interviewed here by John Wedgewood Clarke, lecturer in Creative Writing from the University of Hull. Going back to Beverley also gave me the chance to revisit one of my favourite pubs – Nellie’s. If you’re ever in Beverley, these are my tips – the Minster and Nellie’s!

Again a big, big thanks to the teams at Off the Shelf, Beverley and Ilkley festivals!

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